upon realization.
Her life on Thursday, March 25, 2010
The time was 10:14 PM
I guess me having a bad feeling after seeing that email was not me being paranoid. What happened last year has repeated itself again this year, but on a slightly better not. But nevertheless, my smile is hardly seen.

God seems to be only one that really understands how I feel despite me not telling Him anything, and I'm grateful for that.

I have a problem sharing my troubles and worries to the people around me, even family and friends. I'm not sure. Maybe it's because of past experiences where I do not get consolation but lectures instead, and those lectures just make my day even more worse.

The reason why I did not say anything when you were prep-talking me? I didn't know that to say.
The reason why I stopped confiding in you? You just make matters worse.

But most of all, it's because I do not want you guys to worry. Typing out all this on a blog is so much easier for me than to tell somebody face to face.

I'm sorry.